We have been separated for a while..already.

 

After I have approached her too close, too frank, too romantic (she may vomit =_=), she try to keep distant from me...

 

Actually, this is amazingly my attention.

I really would like to have that distance...just that we still be friends. That's enough for me. Coz we really cannot be other things else.

 

Even it's a bit hurt, but I'm willing to face that situation.

Now, we play, chat...

even sometimes, she unintentionally speak something too cute (that shows her familiar instinc), I have to take care of my own feeling.

Finally, when time pass, everything will go to their own ways...to optimum level ...i think.

Just stay with present at your best...

ทั้งๆ ที่รู้....

Even you know that between us, it is impossible..

Even you know that...we will be apart...

Even you know that...we have a large gap...

Even you know that...you are not fully free....

Why you still make close relationship with me...

Why you still make others feel accompanied with you...

Why you have to do so many meaningful memories with me...to make me feel attached with you..?

Why? Why? Why?

Or is it all my faults?

To feel some special feeling towards you, even you unintentionally make me feel that way...

 

edit @ 20 Dec 2007 00:45:30 by hearty

Well, I don't know how to manage my positive thinking.

 

Actually, based on theory, positive thinking is a very good thing. BUT if you keep on thinking positively that your beloved act like that or like those  coz she loves you......i'm not so sure if it is..a good thing.

 

Thesedays, I go back home with her...

Today, She didn't go back home with me..

I, surely, think of her when I was coming back home...

Strangely, when I near my home, she called me...

She even knew that my door is opened and she even said that why didn't I go inside my home ( at the time, I was still talked with her by phone and not go inside)...O_O

I feel strange...but still not think of other things since she said that she was just leaving her office.

Um...but when I'm inside my home...I suspect of it..

How do she know that exactly? o_O?

Or...she hide herself somewhere near my home waiting to see me going back home? O_O

Um...is that possible? That's why she knew my activities like that!

If it is,,,it was quite romantic ( I officially said 'quite' but in my mind, I think it is SOOOO romantic >.<)

However, when I think of this circumstance, I check my neighbor...but at the time, there was no evidence of her appearance -_-;; (Yes, it took such long time for me to think logically that she might be outside of my home waiting for me >.<)

Um...um..um..

I just think positively that she might do that cute thing for me...but...

there's no evidence that it really is.

If I keep thinking of her positively that way,,,, I must fall in love with her for sure....!

I can't resist of this thing T_T

Maybe at this time, there is a song in my head...

"Wise men said, only fools rush in...

But I can't help, falling in love with you..."

Oh~ Love is a kind of pain....u know that right? >.<

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